idk

​i’ve been doing this sysadmin certification through service now for awhile and it is not going well. I finished the online course on the service now website and I’ve been doing practice projects on ChatGPT, but I feel just as lost as the first day I started. I cannot get through any of the projects or practices without guided help. Even the guided help on ChatGPT gets confused because they changed the user interface constantly.

Basically, I’m pouring my heart and soul into this training and I feel like I’m getting nowhere. Every time I’m finished for the day I feel more discouraged than the last time I logged in. 

And that’s not the worst of it. What’s really been hard is now every single day I wake up I don’t wanna get out of bed, even if it’s a day off. I feel dread as soon as I wake up. I remember where I’m at in life and all I wanna do is go back to sleep. Sometimes I just lay in my bed for hours. 

I really hate my life. i hate everything i do on a daily basis and the only relief i get is when i sleep, or do something i shouldn’t.