pretty good day

I’m a bit caffeinated but I’ve been regulating better recently after cutting out sodas and cutting way back on coffee. Plus I’ve been eating and exercising regularly. My mind and body feel like they are working properly at the moment. 

Instead of getting overwhelmed by the situation with my job I just use it as motivation to do better. I was feeling so bad for so long I got into bad habits. Even though this job pays jack shit, I want to know I am capable of doing it. Any other job I get will be along the same lines and I will need attention, focus and drive no matter what job I have. 

So want to get back where I was a few years ago at work, by that I mean top performer and have good enough stats to at least have the option of a promotion. If I fail, who gives a shit? This job doesn’t pay shit and is easily replaceable.

I want to stay focused on staying healthy and productive. I’ll get involved locally soon, but I want to see progress getting set up with a therapist, meds, and keeping up with day to day life because that was all that was happening when my head fell apart last time. I really hope this works. All I can really do is keep waiting. 

Today was pretty good overall I stayed even the whole day hopefully tomorrow will be as good.