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I can’t think of a title

i wish id never been born

idk

My mind is a tomb where no flowers grow

life as it is

pretty good day

A little over a year and a half ago ago I was employee of the quarter regularly, a top performer, trainer, and being considered for a promotion at work. Now I am literally one mistake away from being fired. This issue started once I quit drinking. I’m struggling at living a normal life. No matter what mountain I climb there is always another one that is steeper. Now on top of needing doctors and healthcare I cannot afford, I have to live with the fact that I could lose my income at any moment. I also have to live with the fact that whenever I talk about my problems it makes other people feel uncomfortable or resent me for the most part. Even most people whos problems and I listen to seem to pull back or just dont know what to say and i get alienated regardless of whether it’s fair or not. I have to keep my problems supressed for the most part because I will literally have no one left. I do what I can but I feel like no matter how hard I pay attention and try to think before I speak and act I always end up saying something that gets people to just disappear from my life overnight. The problem is no matter how much I try to avoid repeat mistakes there is always something else I didn’t consider so I’ve just come to realize 99% of people just dont want me around and I don’t think there is anything I can do about that. I wish I could end this on more of a positive hopeful note but I just don’t have it in me today. I got through work that’s all that matters.

title

fuck you die

alive as you need me to be

i love you too

I can’t think of a title

thanks

um hi

survival mode

you and me

love is never easy. not too attractive to the weak.

love you matt

I

almost

it is what it is

ok now i understand

yep

ok now go try to relax again (if you fail ill kill you)

finally letting go doesnt matter title doesnt matter nothing matters

i know what im doing. kind of.

You are a dumb bitch and you make your children’s lives harder for no reason

You’re 20 years old and you still think the world revolves around you? lol good luck kid

This could be a sanity slip or I’m just doing what’s necessary.

new plan, day 1

this isn’t failure. its triage.

“you don’t like me I get that and that’s OK. but you’re wrong and I hate you I need to go cry”

You act like death is a bad thing and not an inescapable part of life

I’m a reasonable man. Get off my case.

psycho rant dont remember what about

rambling about problems that can’t be fixed and no one cares about.

Me rambling about my problems no one cares about

We’re crashing this plane with no survivors

alone all the way