This could be a sanity slip or I’m just doing what’s necessary.

I have to be all in for this to work. This is how all and I have to be. I’m not saying I’m gonna do any of these things, I am saying I have to take it this seriously.I am not a danger to myself or other others at this present moment

if I have to cut the throat of God, I will do it. I will do it and not feel bad about it. I have come way too far to give up now. I have reached out long enough for help and if I’m not gonna get it, I will do this myself.

I am not even looking for friendship or anything anymore for the foreseeable future. I want to be an extremely hateful person. It feels good just saying that. This was my destiny. Everybody has their limit. But not you. You do not possess the ability to give up it is not in you.

I am doing this because I have been forced to do it.It is impossible for me to be a good person or at least keep my morals the way they are and survive.It’s that serious

I have to be ready to walk into a hospital at any moment because I am starting to scare even myself. I’m not throwing up a warning flag. I’m not waving I’m drowning and you’re not doing anything about it so I have to